New Name
Well since I last posted on here I've changed my name and the name of this blog! As usual I'm going to try to blog more but also as usual we'll see what happens. I married an awesome man almost a year ago on April 25th 2009. And the Lord has taken us on an amazing journey ever since.
We moved into a small house in Texico, NM and made it a home. Our two kids (lab's) Maverick and Taylor loved living there and adjusted quite well to their new home. They had friends on either side of our house that they loved to go out and "chat" with.
Mark and I had great times together there and many laughs, deep conversations, and meals (some good some not so good :) were shared. We have loved our first year of marriage and being able to share everyday with our bestfriend!
Mark is working with his dad and I have been taking care of Grams, Mark's 96 year old grandma and loving every minute of that. She is such a whipper snapper!
Yet we now find ourselves in a place of leaning on the Lord. Of course we always do but now we are learning to wait on the Lord for His perfect timing. I have been offered and accepted a job at Baylor Uinversity in their child development center. After much praying Mark and I felt lead to step out on faith and get ready to move to Waco, TX. Eventhough he does not have a job and we don't have a place to live yet. Our friends have graciously offered to house us till we find a place to live and Mark has been feverishly trying to find a job. Seems in this day and age of the digital world it's easy for people not to get back to you on job's and Mark is finding that very frustrating. He is so well qualified for the positions he's applying for that it's just plain frustrating sometimes to not hear anything or to hear a no.
Yet we know that this is God's way of directing us to the exact right spot He wants us to be in. We have prayed that doors would be opened and closed by Him and none would be left cracked that He didn't want us to walk through. God has been faithful to so this even when it seems frustrating to us that people just quit communicating, yet we see this as a way of God closing that door for us.
In the midst of all this...well I'll just say it, we are praying for Gods timing on making us parents. I know you may say "you haven't even been married a year yet. Take your time." But honestly both of us thought we would be parents by now. We had no idea that God would wait till our 30's to introduce us to our soul mates. Of course if God had been going by my timeline I'd have a whole litter of kids by now :) But I know that His timing is again PERFECT.
Yet I find that waiting for children is almost harder than waiting for a husband. You know the grass always seems greener on the other side, and finding the love of my life consumed my thoughts a lot in the past. Now that I have him, and love him and want to share in parenting with him, waiting for children can be all consuming at times.
I've had a few talks about this with friends and it's hard cause this is the one area in your life that you trully have no control over. Yes there are things you can do but I won't get into that especially for my single friends sake. But God is the one who creates life not us. God is the one who gives the blessing of children, decides the right time for them to be born and who they will become. To have that little control can be very frustrating.
But instead of being frustrated by this I beleive this is the time to stand in awe of the power of God to give and take away. I am iin awe of a God who trully does have my best interest at heart and that of my husband and our future family. Of course it's hard. Every month seems to have a period of dissapointment in it. There are times I feel like I'm letting down my husband cause I can't give him children at the moment (although he has never said that or done anything to make me feel that way it's just that nagging thought from the enemy rearing it's ugly head). I seem to be ablet to understand Hannah from the bible more at these times. When she was barren and praying for a child. My rival seems to be the devil at those times. Taunting me with the fact that I don't have children, reminding me of all the times people have unknowing tried to compliment me on what a good mother I will be, yet in a way that hurts cause I'm not one yet.
I know that as soon as we do have children we will have moments of "what were we thinking" our lives will be so different, and then we will trully know what it means to be out of control :) But we are ready for that. Whenever God decides it's time we are ready.
As for now, we are not walking around with our heads down, we are enjoying life with each other and every exciting day God gives us. We are the luckiest even if God does not choose to give us natural children. We have been blessed and want to be a blessing. I hope that you allow God to bless you today!
We moved into a small house in Texico, NM and made it a home. Our two kids (lab's) Maverick and Taylor loved living there and adjusted quite well to their new home. They had friends on either side of our house that they loved to go out and "chat" with.
Mark and I had great times together there and many laughs, deep conversations, and meals (some good some not so good :) were shared. We have loved our first year of marriage and being able to share everyday with our bestfriend!
Mark is working with his dad and I have been taking care of Grams, Mark's 96 year old grandma and loving every minute of that. She is such a whipper snapper!
Yet we now find ourselves in a place of leaning on the Lord. Of course we always do but now we are learning to wait on the Lord for His perfect timing. I have been offered and accepted a job at Baylor Uinversity in their child development center. After much praying Mark and I felt lead to step out on faith and get ready to move to Waco, TX. Eventhough he does not have a job and we don't have a place to live yet. Our friends have graciously offered to house us till we find a place to live and Mark has been feverishly trying to find a job. Seems in this day and age of the digital world it's easy for people not to get back to you on job's and Mark is finding that very frustrating. He is so well qualified for the positions he's applying for that it's just plain frustrating sometimes to not hear anything or to hear a no.
Yet we know that this is God's way of directing us to the exact right spot He wants us to be in. We have prayed that doors would be opened and closed by Him and none would be left cracked that He didn't want us to walk through. God has been faithful to so this even when it seems frustrating to us that people just quit communicating, yet we see this as a way of God closing that door for us.
In the midst of all this...well I'll just say it, we are praying for Gods timing on making us parents. I know you may say "you haven't even been married a year yet. Take your time." But honestly both of us thought we would be parents by now. We had no idea that God would wait till our 30's to introduce us to our soul mates. Of course if God had been going by my timeline I'd have a whole litter of kids by now :) But I know that His timing is again PERFECT.
Yet I find that waiting for children is almost harder than waiting for a husband. You know the grass always seems greener on the other side, and finding the love of my life consumed my thoughts a lot in the past. Now that I have him, and love him and want to share in parenting with him, waiting for children can be all consuming at times.
I've had a few talks about this with friends and it's hard cause this is the one area in your life that you trully have no control over. Yes there are things you can do but I won't get into that especially for my single friends sake. But God is the one who creates life not us. God is the one who gives the blessing of children, decides the right time for them to be born and who they will become. To have that little control can be very frustrating.
But instead of being frustrated by this I beleive this is the time to stand in awe of the power of God to give and take away. I am iin awe of a God who trully does have my best interest at heart and that of my husband and our future family. Of course it's hard. Every month seems to have a period of dissapointment in it. There are times I feel like I'm letting down my husband cause I can't give him children at the moment (although he has never said that or done anything to make me feel that way it's just that nagging thought from the enemy rearing it's ugly head). I seem to be ablet to understand Hannah from the bible more at these times. When she was barren and praying for a child. My rival seems to be the devil at those times. Taunting me with the fact that I don't have children, reminding me of all the times people have unknowing tried to compliment me on what a good mother I will be, yet in a way that hurts cause I'm not one yet.
I know that as soon as we do have children we will have moments of "what were we thinking" our lives will be so different, and then we will trully know what it means to be out of control :) But we are ready for that. Whenever God decides it's time we are ready.
As for now, we are not walking around with our heads down, we are enjoying life with each other and every exciting day God gives us. We are the luckiest even if God does not choose to give us natural children. We have been blessed and want to be a blessing. I hope that you allow God to bless you today!