Ever just want to cry
Ever just want to cry about something but can't?? That's how I feel right now. I was hurt by some words from a friend today. I don't believe they meant to hurt me but I do know they meant to make themselves feel better and in the process it hurt me. I guess it's an old wound I haven't dealth with before but all I know right now is that it hurts and I don't know why. I keep trying to make myself not be hurt by discounting it but it won't go away.
Not much else to say about that other than please pray as I sort through it. God is so good though. I know He is here right now and I have been talking to Him alot. In fact yesterday I had kinda of a emotional morning and I was able to get away by myself in nature and read His word and it was great. I was sitting by a creek and I wrote these words in my journal..."Lord in your name strip away all these distractions and let me glory only in you." I'm telling you it was amazing. At that moment the CD player I was using ran out of batteries, the creek slowed and was quiet and there were no people going by on the path that had just recently been so busy. It was just me and Him sitting there together and I was able to just be still and take it all in. I guess that was the calm before the storm of today. Please pray taht I keep hold of that peacefulness. That as I just read in Psalms I would "Seek peace and persue it"
Not much else to say about that other than please pray as I sort through it. God is so good though. I know He is here right now and I have been talking to Him alot. In fact yesterday I had kinda of a emotional morning and I was able to get away by myself in nature and read His word and it was great. I was sitting by a creek and I wrote these words in my journal..."Lord in your name strip away all these distractions and let me glory only in you." I'm telling you it was amazing. At that moment the CD player I was using ran out of batteries, the creek slowed and was quiet and there were no people going by on the path that had just recently been so busy. It was just me and Him sitting there together and I was able to just be still and take it all in. I guess that was the calm before the storm of today. Please pray taht I keep hold of that peacefulness. That as I just read in Psalms I would "Seek peace and persue it"